junebug.

Today is the first day of the Season of Lent. Are you giving anything up for the next 40 days?

Ahh, lent.  This time of year reminds me of hanging out with the blood relatives while visiting for Easter.  We sat around and ate food and this was usually a topic.  To be honest, I've never been able to follow through, but I think that's because I've never really done it seriously.  I have yet to actually say, "Okay, this year I'm giving up _____ for lent."  It's probaby a good idea for me to attempt to do this every year now.  Especially with some of the more serious things that have happened recently.  My brother-in-law had an almost heart attack which was pretty scary.  He's still very young and he had to have surgery to get stents placed in his arteries.  Don't get me wrong, I know lent isn't just about health issues.  It's about giving up anything you may over indulge.  I'm thinking it may have to be soda.

I've been working for QVC since September.  It was a seasonal position, but it was full time.  After the season was over, I was evaluated and the results came out well.  They wanted to keep me - but not as full time.  Instead, they kept me as an on call representative.  And what that basically is, is a part time job.  However, it's not a very consistent one which is why I ended up quitting today.  The way I see it, driving 18 miles there and back isn't worth $120 every two weeks.  The way it worked with on call is they had so many hours they could give out every week and you had to be quick to grab the good hours (daytime) or you were screwed and on top of that, they have all their hours posted in one hour or two hour increments.  Is it really worth it working two measley hours and driving home at 2am?  No, I didn't thin so.  So, today, for the first time - in person - I quit.  They were very nice about it.  I regret not being able to speak to my supervisor about it, as she wasn't in yet and I couldn't wait 2 hours fo her to get there.  Out of all the call center jobs I've done, which is a total of 3, that was probably the most enjoyable.  I just need to get out of the customer service bit before I get crazier.  As crazy as it sounds, I really do envy people that enjoy sitting there helping people because it starts out okay, but it always goes downhill very quickly for me.  I'll encounter that first bitch of a customer where it gets my heart pounding so hard I think it'd going to jump out of my chest and I clench my teeth and then my tone turns to not-so-friendly, as theirs went out the window once they heard they had to pay both shipping & handing plus tax on the item.  The petty, jealous complaints about the hosts on the show aren't worth the stress because they're so ridiculous I won't waste corporate's time with such asinine complaints. For me, it's just not worth it.  I'm 25 years old going nowhere and struggling to pay monthly bills and I cannot do it anymore.  I'm not saying I want to be rich.  All I want is to be able to live comofortably and to be able to buy nice things for myself and others every now and then.  Everyone tells me it's silly to feel guilty about not buying presents for anyone at Christmas.  It's probably one of the worst feelings I've ever felt in my life, especially when I know that these people I want to give things to are the most deserving.  Today may have not been the smartest, but it felt good doing it because I know it's good for me to rid myself of that worry.